So…. my blog was hacked. Fun. That’s why it was down for who knows how many days. I’ve been so busy and I haven’t checked it in a while. I had to redo everything and I chose this new theme. Although I did enjoy the movie “Hackers” (even though it was cheesy), I have to say that hackers are pieces of shit with small penises.

In other news…. my band has our first show this Friday at The Music Vault and lets just say that I have had borderline diarrhea every time I think about it. I am completely freaking out. My main issue is that I am afraid I will forget the lyrics. I am fine with every other aspect of it. I lost a bunch of weight and I bought a great outfit. My singing has improved and I like our songs. Now if I can just remember the fucking lyrics, that’s all I need to get me through it! My friends have been super supportive and I love them for it. I will need a shot of strong liquor before the show to calm me down. Not enough to get me drunk of course. But just enough to take the edge off. If I can just get through this one show, I will be fine for ALL future shows.

My friend Stacy wrote some lyrics and passed them over to us. Our guitar player had a song he was messing around with, so at practice a few days ago, I added Stacy’s lyrics to his song and came up with a melody to it. All I can say is that it turned out to be our best song so far and I can’t wait to record it so you can hear it. Until then, only the people at our show on Friday will get to hear it.

My life is nothing but band band band now. I still haven’t gone back to work. Once this show is over, our guitar player has to leave town for a month due to work and I fully intend to get my “normal” life together while he is gone. But once he comes back, its back to band life. It would be nice if I could meld the two lives together.

My good friend Stacy told me that all of this happened for a reason. I’d like to think that it is for a good reason and that it doesn’t end up being more trouble than its worth. At least I can come out of it someday knowing that I was a singer in a rock band and that I got on a stage and performed for people. A lot of people dream of that and here it is thrown in my lap. Que sera sera.

Being at the recording studio was a wonderful experience and I am sure I will spend a lot more time there. I finished the vocals for three of our songs, although only two of them are ready for you to hear. Check them out at our MySpace page:

myspace.com/fuckhonestmistake.

Last night, our band Honest Mistake went into the recording studio to lay down tracks for three of our songs. They are called “Wristcutters”, “Faker”, and “Run”. The Wristcutters song was written about the movie of the same name. You should check it out. I have to go back into the studio tonight to record the vocals. But I can tell you…. the music part is so good. The boys came out of there feeling really good. I hope I don’t fuck it all up! Anyway, if I am lucky, I will be coming home with a mastered copy. If not, I am sure by the end of the week, we will have the tracks up on our myspace page. Wish me luck!

Also, what the hell is up with the IRS this year?? I was supposed to get my tax return on the 31st. Never received it so I checked and now they moved the date to Feb 10th. This is ridiculous. I am so broke!!!!!!!

And as far as my weight loss….. I have lost about 12 pounds. So… in order to reach my goal, I have to lose 8 more in a little over 2 weeks. Totally possible if I keep eating and working out like I have been. I used to HATE exercise. But now I kind of enjoy getting on my treadmill. I sleep so much better at night. I wake up refreshed. I have more energy during the day. My clothes are fitting better. I don’t feel so fucking old anymore. I’ve been using some lightweight free weights to try to tone my arms. As soon as my tax return gets here, I am getting a huge tattoo on my other arm and I want to be able to show it off. Lord knows my arms are in no shape to be looked at right now. So, once again….. wish me luck!